Friday, May 2, 2014

The thing about pain is it demands to be felt

I was blow away by all the loving comments you left on my last post about my Dad.  Blogging throughout this whole process has helped me cope in so many ways.  Thank you for sharing similar stories of loss sprinkled with lots of hope and healing.  I have also passed on all of the sweet messages to Cristi about what an amazing friend she is.  We are lucky to have each.
She went with me to pick up Dad after he was cremated.
 We brought a little life to this funeral home.
I wish I could say that this has been a good week, it hasn't.  What is the worst thing that could happen right now?
Peetee has been is the hospital for 3 days.  My lil boy is nursing a serious neck injury that is causing a nerve to get pinched in his spine, he cries out horribly.  As of yesterday there was no improvement but this morning there are signs he might pull through without surgery.  Chris and I have been totally out of it.  He is OUR BOY! Hearing Peetee cry like that and knowing there is nothing you can do is the most awful thing in the world, very similar to how I felt watching my Dad stave to death.
Please everyone let's say a prayer for Peetee.  Once he is back in my arms happy and healthy I can finally start to heal myself.
I'm ready for better brighter days.

36 comments:

Vix said...

I'm sending Peetee and you and Chris loads and loads of love and hoping he gets better really soon.
Big hugs to Cristi for being a true friend.
Wishing you were joining us tomorrow, you know it won't be the same without you.
Keep being strong, things will get better and well done for remaining beautiful and fabulously dressed despite everything!
Love you! xxxxxxx

thorne garnet said...

Man,when it rains to pours. Hang in there, love.

pastcaring said...

Oh no, poor Peetee, that's so sad. We do love our wee critters, don't we, and when they are ill, it really hurts. Sending him lots of love and good thoughts for a speedy recovery. You and Chris really need that little pup to be well and happy right now.
Cristi has been the most brilliant friend, and I'm glad she knows how we all appreciate everything she's done.
These are thoughtful photos, Krista. It's a thoughtful, quiet time, full of memories and sadness and grief. But as always, you and Cristi bring colour and love and friendship, whatever the situation.
Yes, better brighter days, please - we'll drink to that tomorrow and raise a glass to you, darling! xxx

Miss Magpie said...

Oh my goodness the poor wee chap. Sending lots of get well vibes and hugs to you.

This makes me think of a picture I saw this week that said' Alright God you can stop giving, I think I've handled enough now'.

Forest City Fashionista said...

Oh Krista, you've had enough heartache to last for a while! I will most certainly say a prayer for Peetee. It's heartbreaking to watch any creature we love suffer, and having this come right after losing your Dad must seem like too much to bear. Peetee is a strong little guy, and I'm sure he'll make it back home to your arms soon. XX

Mrs C said...

Sending lots of love to you all and get well wishes to peetee xx

Tamera Wolfe said...

Sending up healing prayers for our lil buddy Peetee!!
I'm also sending up prayers for you during this time
{{{Hugs}}}

Francesca Edesia said...

Praying for you Krista. You reminded me of my mother, she had Alzheimers. I sympathize with you. A big hug.

PinkCheetahVintage said...

Vibing you and Peetee hard! What horrible timing :( You really look amazing for having so much on your plate. You and Cristi are a great team. Friends are the best xoxoxo

Kari S said...

Oh my, you've been through the wringer. Poor Peetee, I just know he's going to come through and be back home very soon. I think, just like what's happening in Portland, brighter days ARE ahead for you.

Pull Your Socks Up! said...

Thank you for sharing these very touching pics of you and Christi at the funeral home. The look on your face in the pic of you clutching Phil close to you ... well, that just cut me. Once Peetee gets home, you and Chris will have your wee family back together to enjoy that glorious sunshine. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoo

Trudie said...

Beg my pardon for not commenting now in regards to your dad. I'm sorry for the pain and worry that your feeling at the moment. If there is one thing for certain is that you are surrounded by bright beautiful psychedelic love, as bright as yourself.....at this difficult time.

May Peetee heal.
May your dad rest in peace.

Carina Rosenholm said...

Oh no ... praying for Peetee . I so hope he will be in your loving arms again soon . Sunshine will be back again .

Love and hugs!

Sue said...

Peetee will be fine, he has you to get well for. You are amazing, and so brave to share the pain in life that is happening right now. Time is a great healer they say, and it is true, just remember there is no time limit with time, so take as much as you need. There is no right way or wrong way to grieve either. I wish you love, happiness and peace.

La Dryada said...

Bright blessings and loving thoughts to you and your little sweetheart Peetee ...
We don't know eachother , I discovered your blog some time ago , and left a comment after reading Vix's touching post this week ...
One of my three cats got seriously ill more than 5 years ago and passed away at the end of 2012 ...
Therefore , I truly understand your being preoccupied ...
On my blog I dedicated several posts to my feline friends ...
When I'm wearing flashy pink or orange ~ like right now ~ that reminds me of you ...
Thank you for remaining your beautiful self Krista ...

Sending you lots of courage
and rainbow kisses

Beth Waltz said...

Krista, do be very kind to yourself at this time when one "let's go to exhale." Please eat carefully, take naps (and perhaps supplements) and indulge in bubble baths and perhaps a professional massage.

Professional massage can help some animals -- your vet might recommend someone to give Peetee some relief? Poor little guy!

Natalia Lialina said...

Dear Krista, I send all my love to you and your sweet Peetee! It breaks my heart to learn that there is more sadness and pain... That's enough. Please take a good care of yourself, my dear. Lots of love to you! Sunshine and rainbows! And miracles! And hugses!

freckleface said...

Poor Krista, you are really going through it right now. I know how much you love your little Peetee, i hope you get some good news soon. Those photos at the funeral place are so sad...i hated the place where my dad was cremated, couldn't go for years afterwards. I preferred to think of him in happy places. I hope, once all the awfulness starts to subside a bit you can do the same. We raised a toast to you today. Vix brought a photo of you so that you were present on the table. Lots of love xxxxx

Anne said...

Oh sweet lady, I know your pain. It is very hard to lose a father. I can say that four years after my Pop died, I definitely feel his presence with me when I am lonely for him. When I need him, he is there, always smiling and encouraging me. It is a real comfort and I know these days are so hard. Let them be hard, and let yourself be sad. It will sneak up on you sometimes in the weirdest moments. Let it. It is going to be alright and bright days are coming. So happy to see you and Cristi there for each other. xoxo Anne.

Penny-Rose said...

Sending lots of love and strength to you and get well soon wishes to Peetee.

Trees said...

I'm so glad you have such a wonderful friend in Cristi. But I am so terribly sorry to hear about Peetee, I hope he heals quickly and without surgery. Thinking of you xoxo

Ivy Black said...

Sending and yours all a big chunk of love. An extra big kiss for Peetee. These little lads n'lassess have a big part our live and hearts don't they? Yup, Cristi is a wonderful friend.
You were definitely there with us yesterday, love. We thought of you heaps and raised our glasses to you. Hope to see you in all your glorious real person one day.
xxxxxxxxx

two squirrels said...

Oh sweet you have been in my thoughts so much this week............sending much love.
Poor wee puppy dog......lots of love to Peetee too.........why does the world do this??????
Happiness to you lovely lady......love v

Tammy McGill said...

Poor little Peetee, I'm hoping he gets well quickly. I have something for I was meaning to drop off last week. I'll try to get it over there today or tomorrow. <3 you

peaches mcginty said...

I believe in the power of lots of positive prayers and thoughts, I am sending lots - you were with us yesterday, at the best part of the table - big hugs to you all x x x

Helga said...

O, our little precious Peetee!!!
I'm sending the snuggliest, squeeziest schmooches and hugs to him! Not the ideal thing whilst you're grieving for your Dad. Ugh.
You are such a fox! I'm amazed the whole crematorium didn't burst into spontaneous rainbows with you two lovlies hanging about!
LOVE!!! XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

daiseedeb said...

Your father is smiling down at his sweet daughter, filled with love, gratitude for your
angelic care and love.
What a joy you have been and continue to be in his life.
Bless you Krista for your rainbow bright sweetness!!!!
xoxo
d

daiseedeb said...

Your father is smiling down at his sweet daughter, filled with love, gratitude for your
angelic care and love.
What a joy you have been and continue to be in his life.
Bless you Krista for your rainbow bright sweetness!!!!
xoxo
d

Connie said...

Oh my dear sweet Krista. You have handled this all with such amazing grace. And poor little Peetee. My little Pancake is recovering from an injury. Dogs are amazing. They get better and forget all about it. Love.

Ariane Lasalle said...

So sorry i hope Peetee gets well soon- Sorry i didn't comment more often but it should be soon, getting better every day - Hang on Krista, wonderful things are ahead for you i can't be any other way you are such a beautiful human being -

Arianexo

Fiona said...

So sorry to hear about Peetee and hope he is soon on the mend..as if you haven't been through enough lately! You are strong Krista and you will handle all life throws at you. Happy times await... and some sad ones too. My mum has been gone three years tomorrow :(
Sending hugs. xx

Annie said...

Thinking of you and sending love and best wishes, Krista.

Annie xxx

Thick Threads said...

oh no, I am so sorry to read about your loss, losing a loved one is never easy, but know that he will always be alive in your memories, that is where you can revisit him forever and always. and as for peetee I am wishing him alllll the best and hope he gets better soon! I hope you are doing ok, I'm keeping you my thoughts.

xx
Anita

Cherokee Rose said...

My hugs, thoughts and prayers are with you and Chris at this most difficult time in your lives. I know that your dad is very proud of you! You are a caring, loving, and colorful (wink) individual. You are indeed fortunate to have a friend as lovely and loving as Cristi in your life. I know that Peetee will be well and back with his mommy before you know it! Like Stevie Nicks sang "You are stronger than you know."

tubby3pug said...

Im so sorry about your Dad's passing about Petee's injury. I had a pug with a similar issue who recovered without surgery and just rest, so keep hoping

retro rover

Citizen Rosebud said...

You are such an incredibly sensitive, beautiful and tough dame, Krista. I imagine your heart has been in heaves of turmoil from your loss, and the pain of worrying over Peetee! Peetee: get better soon! Krista: hang in there, sunshine- you are a sweet soul and I wish for you much sunlight, joy and sense of peace. Love to you, strong woman, and love to your Chris and Crista.