Thursday, May 8, 2014

Peetee pumpkin pie

Do you believe in guardian angels? Now that my Dad has died  I wonder, do I have someone up there looking out for me?  I have been asking my Dad to help get Peetee better.  Over the last week Peetee has been to 5 different hospitals that ended with an MRI and neck surgery two days ago.  My boy has been through HELL!
I don't even know what happened to him because I was so busy taking care of my Dad.
Losing my Dad was painful but there was some relief too because I saw an end to his suffering.
Unfortunately since then I have watched my lil guy be in tremendous pain.  I feel so guilty like somehow this is all my fault.
The surgery went well and he is recovering.  Peetee will need more rest and lots of time and love from his mama to get better.
I hope I can bring him home today.  I have been LOST without him.
I want my ole Peetee back.
 Some beautiful flowers given to me by friends.
All this stress has been making me sick to my stomach unable to eat and dry heaving.  I really need to get my act back together, Peetee needs me to be strong, my whole family does.
I finally ate a little something and it stayed down, although looking at this picture now turns my tummy.
I forced myself to sit in the sun for a bit yesterday.  Once Peetee is home and on the mend I think I too can start to heal.  Sorry to be such a downer but man life has kicked my ass!  

Here's to better days for all of us!

26 comments:

pastcaring said...

Right: imagine the biggest, tightest, squeeziest hug in the world. Got that? Well, that's what I am sending you now!
I am so sorry you are having such a very hard time, Krista. The stress and sadness of your dad's illness and death has been challenging enough; to have Peetee ill and in pain now is too much. I can understand completely that you have felt lost without him around. Now of course his poor health isn't your fault, not at all. It's just monstrously bad timing. You're right, he needs you to be well yourself to look after him; I think you will recover better together!
So eat, sit in the sun, and bring that sweet little pup home. Look at him, he's just adorable, and he loves you to pieces! xxxxx

Vix said...

Awww, look at him. I'm sure with your love and all of our positive vibes radiating across the globe Peetee will be on the mend soon.
I bet the house has been so empty without him. It was odd talking to you last week without him being snuggled up next to you or yapping at the mail man.
Yes, food takes a back seat when there's stress and heartbreak involved. Be kind to yourself and eat well - please.
Love you! xxxxxxxx

Kari S said...

Don't you dare say, sorry for being a downer. I'd like to present you with.......is there ever a time in your life its perfectly ok to BE a downer?!
Poor Peetee would you just look at those eye's. So he can move his head and stuff it just causes him pain? But the surgery seems to have fixed it and he's on the mend? Did I get all that right? I hope he's home soon, like as in today kind of soon.
I also hope you can manage to eat soon. You've been through the ringer girl. Hugs for you and Peetee

Kathi said...

I hope dear Peettee gets to come home today! I second Vix's instructions: Please be kind to yourself and take care!

Lanternarius said...

Lots of kisses to your sweet doggie.<3

Natalia Lialina said...

Sooooo many people think of you and send you big hugs and much love now, my dear! I would bring you some good Russian borscht now, if we were closer. :)

These photos are precious. I think Peetee just really really really have been missing you when you were busy taking care of your beloved Dad. I am so relieved to hear that your little boy is getting better now and will be home soon. Please please do not ever think that it's your fault... You are the kindest, love. You are amazing! You need so much love and care right now, much much much. Take a good care of yourself. Be kind to yourself. Lots of love to you and Peetee.

Carina Rosenholm said...

Oh .. that poor little sweetheart .. it hurts just to think about animals being sick and in pain . Hope that you get him home soon so you can nurse him back to health and love him to pieces .
Big big hugs to you and Peetee .

Sylvia said...

Krista, you are not alone.

Forest City Fashionista said...

Life really has kicked you hard over the past while, and you need to look after yourself so that you can help Peetee recover. I understand the temptation to feel guilty, but you were a loving support to your Dad, and you've been an excellent dog Mom, so you have nothing to feel guilty about. Sit in the sun, wear something you love, eat things easy on your tummy, and know that lots of people are thinking of you and sending love.

PinkCheetahVintage said...

Poor you and poor Peetee! That is horrible. He really got himself twisted up. He just needs your love and attention now---you're good at that :) More time in the sun and eat what you can--that's what you need <3

Gracey the Giant said...

Oh, goodness, poor Peetee! Hugs to you both.

Tamera Wolfe said...

MrBill and Gracie are sending all of their love and licks to their buddy Peetee!!!

I wish I could hug you tight right now. Peetee and you are both in my prayers.

He looks his sweet sweet self in his pictures even not feeling his best. I know he and you will do much better when he gets home!!!

MrBill sends Peetee a delicious fresh cyber cat turd to munch on!!

thorne garnet said...

Ice cream, that always works for me when the world goes out the window. Peetee is going to be getting so much love from you he won't know to do. He such a dear little fellow.

Vintage Bird Girl said...

The timing just couldn't get any worse....poor Peetee. Must be so hard when you really need a calm & stress free environment right now. I do hope Peetee is back to his happy self soon. Take care Krista. xx

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La Dryada said...

Please, don't blame yourself for what happened to your little sweetheart , but it's understandable , you've been through a lot of hard times lately ...
And it's okay to feel down once in a while , it's just human ...
Peetee's allright , that's most important ! With you to look after him , he'll surely get better very soon ...
This morning , passing by a flower and plants shop in our neighbourhood , I watched through the windows and saw all the bright purples , pinks and oranges ( not only the flowers , the decoration as well )and thought by myself " This could be Krista's shop ! " ...
You would love it !

Take good care of yourself
Bright blessings and rainbow kisses

freckleface said...

Poor little baby Peetee, he's such a little love and this is terrible timing. I understand the guilt, something similar happened to me and I always felt i didn't give my poor little boy what he needed at the time because i was looking after someone else, but what can you do? You've done the best you could possibly have for everyone and now you can be there to look after him, but remember, you have to look after yourself too Krista, you've been through such a lot of trauma in the past few months. Sending you love and hoping to hear some good news about Peetee soon. Xxxxxx

Sue said...

Bad timing is all it is, you have not done anything wrong. Grief is a bitch, so be kind to yourself and take care.

peaches mcginty said...

You have had a truly difficult time, don't let guilt or blame consume you now, it is not your fault Peetee is unwell, as Curtise said it is monstrously bad timing, we are all sending super healing vibes to Peetee and to you, you have shown such courage it is time now to be kind to yourself, you deserve it, I am sending you the warmest of hugs x x x

Trudie said...

Oh Hun don't be sorry we know it's a difficult time for you. We know how brightly you normally live your life. The pain and stress will one day off in the near future will be contrast showing the good and positive in your life even brighter. I hope they makes sense? Sending you and Peetee love and healing.

Rella B said...

Virtual hugs to you and healing energy to Peetee. You've already been through so much and I hope things get back to normal soon.

Beth Waltz said...

Krista, you've got your priorities right: eat, sleep, hold your loved ones close to your aching heart and let time do its healing work.

The loss of appetite and dry heaves might be shock -- not too surprising after what you've endured. Please try ginger tea with something sweet, just to get your engine running. Some recommend chicken soup; me, I prefer chicken salad with walnuts!

Miss Magpie said...

You have nothing to apologise for! I hope as I type this your wee man is already home with you.

Mrs. D said...

Sorry to hear about all this. My condolences about your Dad. I won't even try to say much about it because I know that there isn't anything one can say that will take away the pain this causes.
I hope your darling Peetee can get better x

Pull Your Socks Up! said...

Ahhhhhh yes get those gams outside under the sunshine as often as possible - the sun is full of goodness and gifts of good health and well being. Grabbing a few rays during those impossibly sad moments will fill your soul with the warmth you need. NONE of this is your fault. Bad things seem to happen to the ones we love the most, usually all at the same time - I have no idea why this happens. But hugs can help. And spectacular pendulous flowers in a jar. And pink hair. And warm, fluffy blankets. A little bit of food when you can manage it (chicken soup!!) and happy KMK leggings. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

Trees said...

I'm so sorry you've had such a rough run my lovely. I wish I could hug you through the internet!! I hope your wee Peetee is on the road to recovery xoxox